The Mysterious World

It is Halloween! Which means October is almost over, I can’t believe how fast this month went! I still have like $60 in my food plan I have to use up by today! So I’m planning on buying people food today!  Just when I thought oh it’s Saturday I get a day off of gymnastics my coach decides to schedule  a Saturday practice. So I’m off to that now! Then I have to work from 5-9 tonight..AH! I want to go to the co-ed haunted house later!!  Hopefully my costume turns out okay!  I don’t have too much homework this weekend so that is good, so I’m hoping to get ahead in my classes!! I hope everyone has a good Halloween!

So I have noticed the couple of posts have I done are super despressing and sad, but it just so happens that this last week/weekend was amazing and this weekend will be also! I had an amazing time with my family this fall break.  I got to see my sister and my home friends, whom I have missed a lot.  And this weekend is Halloween, and a group of us are getting all dressed up in hopes for a good time.  I hope it will  be as I expected it to be!

Well, my Halloween costume is almost done. I have to sand and paint my prop but then that’s it! I also have to press the seams on my jacket, but I’m having a really hard time finding someone with an iron that I can borrow. Agh.

The plot I’ve got planned for NaNo is coming along nicely, but I’ve hit a few walls. It’s not exactly something I can just run with or make up as I go since it’s rather important to the story. I have a few ideas that work pretty well but I’m not sure if I like them or not. Well, I do have til Sunday to sleep on it. Otherwise, I can’t wait to start!

Otherwise, after midterms and break, school has gone back into a bit of a lull. Reading, reading, blah blah blah…

Ah i keep forgetting to blog every week! I think I need to start blogging towards the beginning of the week because as it gets later and later in the week I have more to do and then I just forget!  I had a good fall break though.  It went by way too fast.  I hung out with friends and my family.  I also went to the Husker football game and that was fun even though we lost. But other than that it was good to be home and sleep in my own bed for a few days!  But now it’s back to reality and the homework and tests are all picking up again!  I need this weekend to catch up on things, and get my head on right so I can get back into the swing of things.  I got  injured in gymnastics, so I hope everything gets better soon so i can actually accomplish things at practice soon! I hope everyone has a good friday! See you in class! Goodnight!

Well I once again found a way to totally forget to do one of these and now that the week has gone by so fast, I have to do one tomorrow as well haha.  Fall break went very well for me.  It was good to see the family again and good to see one of my good friends that I haven’t seen in awhile.  He luckily had the same fall break as I did and it was good to catch up on things.  I finally got to see my dog in that really made my day.  I was really surprised that she even remembered me haha.  She is really the prized possession in the house and it was good to catch up with the brother and sister and to see how school was going for them.  Hockey has just started and we have our first game on saturday in Bloomington for the MIAC showcase, it should be fun even thought its on halloween .

Finally, the sweet fall break ends, I end up back at school again. This is like end of my dream, and I need to face the real life again. Stay in Kansas was absolutely fantastic, I know, I know someone says Kansas is a boring state, but it was totally different when I spent my time with my friends. I have 4 friends there, we cooked meals together, we went to gym together, and we did nothing but just laugh together.That was amazing.

It was interesting to see how University of Kansas is different from GAC, and how people’s life there. I have to say it hurts my feet so bad for me to walked down the campus of KU. There were too many students so the crowds almost got me lost. And I have to admit that I missed our market place so much when I ate at market place there. Okay, those are just random thoughts, because I ‘m still kind of missed my trip, so I don’t really know what to say. The only thing I didn’t like is about the greyhound, I spent totally 18 hours on the bus, it was okay on the bus, but it was totally not when I stood in the station waiting for the next bus. It was scared, especially at 2′o clock in the morning, you stood there alone, and some guy just stared at you with strange expression in their eyes. Anyways, that was a good chance for me to see the different side of America, no matter it was good or bad. I learned a lot from this trip, when I got here, I know it was totally worth it.

Now I just need to do my study well, and get excited for my next journey at Thanksgiving! See you guys tomorrow! (I actually should post my blog yesterday, but I was totally forgot, I’m sorry )

Red leaves scatter, tossed by the wind. Dusk darkens into night. Stars glimmer in the sky, the breeze is crisp. Golden globes with carved out faces glow on each doorstep.

The call came late, after a fun night at the church. Trunk-or-Treat they called it. A safe way for kids to go trick-or-treating in a not so safe neighborhood. Each child’s face had a sense of wonder and anticipation as they went from car to car getting candy. Their sacs bulged and mouths watered. The call came later, as I unlocked the door to my house – 11 o’clock.

His voice sounded smooth over the phone, he sounded innocent. He wanted to go for a walk, he had missed me. I told him he could have come with me, to Trunk-or-Treat. He responded saying he should have, he had just stayed at home. There was question in my voice, I replied, “No parties?” His answer came quick with no hesitation. There hadn’t been a party, no drinks. He said that he didn’t go because of me; he knew I liked him more when it was just him.

In my mind I wondered if this was true – there had been no hesitation this time, no stuttering to come up with a good lie – who was I to accuse? I told him we could meet on the canal path behind our houses. 11:15, I saw him, his ripped jeans, gray sweatshirt. His hair was tousled, he was wearing his glasses. I loved it when he wore his glasses – less macho – simply him. He ran to me and picked me up in his embrace, warm. There wasn’t a scent of alcohol, just Old Spice deodorant and his peppermint gum. I relaxed, fell into his strong arms. He let me down and we walked, our fingers interlaced. We talked for a long time as the stars looked down on us and the miles grew behind us.

We stopped at a hill, sat down. I kissed him and thanked him for keeping his promise. He didn’t answer, only kissed me back. It was then that I understood he hadn’t kept his promise; I could taste the alcohol on his lips. Up close, I could smell it, invasive and bitter; his gum had worn out. I pulled away but he would not let me. He told me he had been patient, a good boyfriend. I told him he was drunk, he wasn’t thinking. He kept coming and I pushed away. Angry words flashed between us. I told him I was done – he knew the boundaries – I was tired of the pressure, of the lies… and I was done. He stopped then, almost stunned. Then his pride grew, his heart broke, and his anger flared. A sudden pain jolted my face, ruby drops of blood streamed from my nose. I looked up at him – blood running down my face, my eyes questioned him – his eyes shown with fear and loss; almost as if he would reach down and wipe away the blood. His lips were angry though, they told a different story. He yelled, yelled that I was only a child, a stupid child, not worth anything. Then, he ran, ran from his doubt I think.

The leaves were still, blood red against the ground. Night shadowed the path, hiding the angry words that had passed. Clouds covered the sky, the air cold and thick. Jackal faces laughed, their weak lights flickering. But I was blessed, it was only a nose and with time it would heal.

Well, I had a WONDERFUL break. I loved being at home. I wish I could stay home forever. I had an in-depth conversation with my mother and she gave me permission to drop out of college after the first year!!! She said that I just have to find SOMETHING to do and not be a lazy bum. I think I can handle that! I really missed showers at home and using nice, clean toilets. My mom is obsessed with air fresheners so my bathrooms smell delicious! Here, they always stink horribly and it makes me sad. I really am thankful for the custodians!! Oh, what a depressing loss for the Vikings on Sunday! I think I might have cried because I was so devastated. We only needed one yard for a touchdown and our attempts failed! Favre disappointed me, but I still like him a lot. I really cannot wait to watch them kill the Packers next week!! Next weekend is going to be big since it’s Halloween also, so it should be a lot of fun! Hopefully noo homework for the weekend.

While I have been home twice already, this time I must say was the best. My dog was finally home! The last two times I went home my dog, Effie, was at the cabin with my Dad. That also means I didn’t see my Dad, or my brother for that matter. I definitely missed those two as well, but it was just so great to finally get to see my dog! I had missed her sleeping on the end of my bed, keeping my feet warm. I considered sneaking her back into the dorm but there’s just no way she’d be able to climb up onto that lofted bed of mine…

While most everyone else was back at home, I stayed here at good ol’ GAC for a little extra “us” time. Having everyone gone was weird, but it was kind of relaxing, too. Most of the other hockey players stayed the full weekend too, so I was by no means lonely.

My friends and I watched a scary movie called Paranormal Activity last night, actually. I know it’s in theaters, but we managed to find a copy of it online somehow (and by “we”, I mean my friends, because I have no idea how to go about doing such a thing). I recommend it to anyone who likes scary movies- especially for those who tend to get frustrated with the irrational plots that just seem so out-of-this-world that you can’t even believe it enough to raise your heart rate. This movie is about as real as a fake suspense can be.

Hope everyone’s break went well!